Sunday, October 12, 2008

This one is for Emily! :)

Let's see...what's been going on in the world of the Morgans?? Biggest news of all is that I finally quit my job at the preschool. While it was rewarding emotionally, it was not paying the bills and my principal was a true Cruella Deville! I told her 2 weeks before my last day (which was last Friday) that I was going to be leaving. She said ok and wished me well and told my supervisor to tell me not to tell my students or their parents. I held out as long as possible and made it to Wednesday before my last day and I had to tell them. I'm sorry, but that was as close to asking me to lie to them as you can get. Last time I checked, not telling the truth on purpose is pretty similar to telling an outright lie. So, I told the parents that I am close with and she came in on my last day and chewed me out in front of the K4 class. (I haven't mentioned that I was not even with my class Tues-Fri because I was used as a substitute instead). She kept saying over and over again that "THERE WAS A WAY WE DO THINGS HERE." In the end, I am glad that I chose to tell them on my own because there was no telling what she would have told them about me. She made my job so frustrating because she would stand up at meetings and lead devotionals that would make you believe she was an awesome Christian example but when you saw her life and the actions she did in the name of the school, it was pretty hypocritical. It's really been an eye opening experience into why people can be so put off to Christianity. When the principal of a CHRISTIAN school has moral issues and she is supposed to set the tone for her staff, it's difficult for teachers to be salt and light. I am going to pray for her because she doesn't have a clue about what her staff struggles with or how to encourage people. Oh! I am waiting to hear back about a high school teaching position. It would be with a 9th grade class. I am really trying not to get my hopes up, but it is very hard. I am also going to keep looking for other jobs. So, keep me in your prayers. I really need the decision to be very obvious!

On a different note, I saw Nights in Rodanthe today and it was so great. Be warned - it's a tearjerker, but sometimes that is just what I need. The story actually made me appreciate Chris alot more. We have seemed to argue over everything we talk about lately. I don't know if it's because we've started getting used to each other and that just serves as an excuse to be rude to each other or if it's because we are just stressed out or what. I really have been trying to work on it. It always makes me so angry at myself when I take things out on him that have nothing to do with him. Like when I get mad at a situation at work and I bring it home and take it out on him. You would think that after doing it over and over that I would begin to realize what I am doing - but no! It's so frustrating. He has been under alot of stress from work this week because he gained alot more responsibility. One guy was moved to another plant until Christmas and the other one was fired, so essentially Chris gets all their projects. It's not an impossible situation, but it has definitly put on the pressure. I just keep reminding him that they would not give him the projects if they didnt think he could do the job. For only being there 4 months, I think he is doing a great job!

As far as tomorrow goes, I am ready to experience my first day of true unemployment. It will literally be the first day that I don't have class or work to return to. As soon as I graduated, I started my job the very next Monday so there was no break for me. It's going to be wonderful for a few days, but after that I am going to get stir crazy alone( - no baby for me to take care of like Em and Kelly-yet). So, plan for tomorrow is to go work out, do some laundry, eat lunch with mom, and look for a new job. After that -- nothing to do but nothing :)

2 comments:

Unknown said...

Ahh! thats scary but awesome! I'm gald that youre standing up for yourself and doing whats right for you, but ill be praying for you and hope that you get a job teaching high school really soon! Then you'll have a whole new set of headaches... call me, i miss you and LOVE YOU!

Emily Little said...

so glad you updated! i was needing an update on the morgans :)